Blow the candle, Rhyzze!

Hey hey heypee Beeerthdey Christine 'Rhyzze' R. Ouano

Grow old along with me! The best is yet to be, the last of life, for which the first was made. - Robert Browning


To my playmate, textmate, roommate, my bestfriend, my soulmate and the love of my life. Ü Nagkadugay, nagkatiguwang pero nagkalami. The universe has conspired and had our paths crossed. I'm so blessed to have found my match. I could not ask for more.

Will post the details on how we celebrated her day later.

Tik Tok. Dooms Day.

Taken sometime March 2010

I worry, I weigh three times my body 
I worry, I throw my fear around
But this morning, there's a calm I can't explain 
The rock candy's melted, only diamonds now remain

~Clarity, John Mayer

September 1, 2010 is the day.

Could be my Dooms day. It's a Judgement day.

A yes or No, Regularization or not. 

who knows what they'll say.

Anxiety creeps unnoticed.

I need the decision the soonest.

No need to worry, that's what they say.

Worry much about the results they'll lay.

Do or die or Flap and fly, if bad news comes my way.

Oh what will they tell me, what will they say?

September 1, 2010. I'd like to think of it as Dooms day, as it is in a way the make-or-break point of my job.

6 months ago, I decided to make a career move and be part of the Lexmark family. I have to leave behind my friends, my team mates, a fat pay check, my comfort zone. But the most difficult touchstone I had was to leave all the people I shared a strong bond with; people who 2 years I considered my brothers and sisters. I never thought separation would hurt that bad. Many times have I thought of going back but I pride tells me to suck it up and stand up for what I will about start. Currently, I'm working as Technical Support for Color Laser printers in Canada and US. I still am doing the same shit as before but this ballgame is far better than the prior. This is a whole new hedge I have to knock over. 6months after I should be an official employee of the company. Hopefully by then, they give me a 'Yes' and a 'Go' because I'm happy with this daily grind. I'm happy note that I'm in a state where I'm contented, appeased and most of all, stress-free. I just hope they fatten my paycheck soon. >.<




**As of September 1st, happy to note that I got regularized but paycheck did not change. amf

~another gray moment.

When everyone's out of sight and nothing but boredom lurks the night, i still feel alright as long as I have my cigarette and light.

But the problem is when I don't have any sticks on the pack.

All thoughts rushing in now. Places I want to go to flashing in so fast.
I badly wanna go somewhere where there's sun, sand and sea.
I'm bored to death.

>_<

Catching up

"Starting all over again is not that bad. For when you restart, you get another chance to make things right." - Anonymous

Just as promised, I found time to catch up with the life of  Ermat-friendship Osang Rosalejos. We had coffee before my shift and chatted over the just-so-recent break up she had. A bit ironic because we were talking about a very painful experience in a very light and positive manner. Osang still has some signs of devastation but I'm glad that the situation did not get the best of her. I was happy to note that she still remains positive and sane. Ü We were able to make jokes out of the situation. I'm glad to note that the situation never erased all the sense out of my good friend. 

Good luck with your new chapter mat. Whatever lessons you learned in this situation, share it with me on our next sessions. I wish you all the happiness in the coming days. Don't give up on love. Keep believing. Ü

Thought to self:

It is really important to be honest in the earliest days of any relationship, rather telling it after sometime. In that way, you don't waste time, effort and emotions. As in this case, telling the truth after so many years of hiding forfeits the thought of being honest.

Believe

Orianti

You made it so easy

To fall I had no fear at all

I saw you beside me

You never saw me there at all

I promised you all this

I made plans thinking this was it

I never imagined I'd find you and lose myself instead

I just never pictured it would end

And I wanna believe in love

I wanna believe in something bigger than the two of us (the two of us)

And I wanna breathe again

I wanna go back to the days the days I had my innocence

I wanna believe again

He picked up the pieces and put them back where they belonged

But somethings missing but a part of me will carry on

I am gonna learn to trust again

And I wanna believe in love

I wanna believe in something bigger than the two of us (the two of us)

And I wanna breathe again

I wanna go back to the days the days I had my innocence

I wanna believe again

Ordinary People -

Started listening to this artist's songs. 
Starting to get hooked.
So so so so la la la lab...  ♫ ♫ ♫ ♫
Song goes out to Christine Ouano.

Ordinary People

John Legend

Girl im in love with you

This ain't the honeymoon

Past the infatuation phase

Right in the thick of love

At times we get sick of love

It seems like we argue everyday

[Bridge]

I know i misbehaved

And you made your mistakes

And we both still got room left to grow

And though love sometimes hurts

I still put you first

And we'll make this thing work

But I think we should take it slow

[Chorus]

We're just ordinary people

We don't know which way to go

Cuz we're ordinary people

Maybe we should take it slow (Take it slow oh oh ohh)

This time we'll take it slow (Take it slow oh oh ohh)

This time we'll take it slow

This ain't a movie no

No fairy tale conclusion ya'll

It gets more confusing everyday

Sometimes it's heaven sent

Then we head back to hell again

We kiss then we make up on the way

[Bridge]

I hang up you call

We rise and we fall

And we feel like just walking away

As our love advances

We take second chances

Though it's not a fantasy

I Still want you to stay

We're just ordinary people

We don't know which way to go

Cuz we're ordinary people

Maybe we should take it slow (Heyyy)

We're just ordinary people

We don't know which way to go

Cuz we're ordinary people

Maybe we should take it slow (Take it slow oh oh ohh)

This time we'll take it slow (Take it slow oh oh ohh)

This time we'll take it slow

Take it slow

Maybe we'll live and learn

Maybe we'll crash and burn

Maybe you'll stay, maybe you'll leave, 

maybe you'll return

Maybe another fight

Maybe we won't survive

But maybe we'll grow

We never know baby youuuu and I

We're just ordinary people

We don't know which way to go

Cuz we're ordinary people

Maybe we should take it slow (Heyyy)

We're just ordinary people

We don't know which way to go

Cuz we're ordinary people

Maybe we should take it slow (Take it slow oh oh ohh)

This time we'll take it slow (Take it slow oh oh ohh)

This time we'll take it slow

Somebody to lean on.

Friends. We have more than a handful. I'm one of the fortunate ones born with a silver spoon for having the best. Our paths crossed when we were just tenderfoots in High School. We clicked and that's how the story started its once upon a time. Our bond bridged out through college and up to this date. I can't help but sniggle whenever I remember our antics and loony ideas. We also have our share of ups and downs but we always manage to compromise. We divvy on the same things - beach bumming, adventures, music, food, chit chats, and much much more. We manage to have a good time always. I surely yearn for those times. I am thankful for the friendship. Thanks for being the brothers and sisters I never have.

Jammy Rose, Edcel Marie, Karia, Fuenny, Anne-mujer, Jessa Mae, Irish, Libat, Charlie, Opaw

You guys can definitely always lean on me if the problem is too much to handle. Rest assured I'd be there for you guys.

This songs for you.


*****

Lean On Me
Glee Cast

Sometimes in our lives we all have pain
We all have sorrow
But if we are wise
We know that there's always tomorrow

Lean on me, when you're not strong

And I'll be your friend I'll help you carry on
For it won't be long 'Til I'm gonna need
Somebody to lean on
Sometimes in our lives we all have pain
We all have sorrow But if we are wise
We know that there's always tomorrow

Lean on me, when you're not strong
And I'll be your friend I'll help you carry on
For it won't be long 'Til I'm gonna need
Somebody to lean on

Please swallow your pride If I have things you need to borrow
For no one can feel those of your needs That you don't let show

So just call on me brother, when you need a hand
We all need somebody to lean on
I just might have a problem that you'd understand
We all need somebody to lean on

Lean on me, when you're not strong
And I'll be your friend I'll help you carry on

For it won't be long 'Til I'm gonna need
Somebody to lean on

Just Lean on me, just call on me brother, 
when you need a hand
We all need somebody to lean on
I just might, I just might have a problem that you'd understand
We all need somebody to lean on

Lean on me, If there is a load you have to bear

That you can't carry 
I'm right up the road I'll share your load If you just call me, call me, call me
call me, when you need a friend
call me
call me
call me

It won't be long, 'Til I'm gonna need
Somebody to lean on, lean on, lean on, lean on me
lean on me, lean on, lean on, lean on, lean on me
lean on me

I'm gonna need Somebody to lean on

MISS YOU GUYS.

 

     

I just wanna be in the beach. Sunburn!

Your sunshine I miss.

Summer, Oh Summer, how many months 'til you'll be back?

I can't wait. Oh, I can't wait.

My backpack's ready. I'm ready.

Come on, please tell me.

~  nieco

On the lighter note. I'm Captured.

Life is like a roller coaster, as they say. So is love.

I'm like a bipolar sponge. My mood gets affected by these songs.

Or is it just by chance that the songs played meet the mood I have.

But nevertheless, I still feel warm when I hear love songs. ♫ ♫

Song:  I'm Captured.

Artist: Christian Bautista featuring Sitti

I was captured the moment we met

Carried away with every word you said

It’s a mystery how you got to me

I fell in the spell of your charms

With your siren’s smile you caught me off guard

Just one glance took away my breath

Then you drew me in with your tenderness

You captivate my soul, I’m enraptured

You knocked me out and you locked me up

Stole my heart like a thief at love

Keep me here in your happy ever after

I’m captured

By the way just in case you care

I’m here to stay, I’m not going anywhere

I took a dive in your deep dark eyes

And I’m never coming up for air

I lost myself in this bond that we share

One sweet kiss took away my breath

Then you drew me in with your tenderness

You captivate my soul, I’m enraptured

You knocked me out and you locked me up

Stole my heart like a thief at love

Hold me tight in your happy ever after

Now you’ve got the best of me

No one else could hold the key

I’m captured

Just one touch took away my breath

When you drew me in I could not resist

You captivate my soul, I’m enraptured

You knocked me out and you locked me up

Stole my heart like a thief at love

Keep me here in your happy ever after

I’m captured


Dedicated to Christine Ouano

Try Sleeping With A Broken Heart

So tonight I’m gonna find a way to make it without you

Tonight I’m gonna find a way to make it without you

I’m gonna hold on to the times that we had

Tonight I’m gonna find a way to make it without you

Have you ever tried sleeping with a broken heart?

I'm bothered by the thought that I could not be there for a very close friend who is in such a pain right now. I can't imagine the heartache that she's experiencing. Kept on texting her to help her see the situation. Hope she makes it through the night without getting overshadowed by the hurt brought by a heartless beau. Incidentally, while we were texting, got caught by the song. Mat, we'll talk later.




Thought to self:
uso lageh ning love love na problema gyd noh? But from all the talking, it always boils down to the failure of being truthful. Ain't it easier if you tell the person your true intentions prior to going steady? That way, you bail out from all that painful goodbyes and uncomfortable hellos. People. Go figure.

happy happy Paulene! ><,

Just like fine wine, you grow better with the years.

Recalled this line during one of the birthday messages I heard. I felt it was too 'hallmarky' so perked it up and changed it a little for my home girl. 

Met 'couz' Pau when I was still working for eTele**** about 2 years ago. We were on the same wave, team, program, and have been the favorite employees for transfers to different LOBs. Up to this date, We work together for Lex**** but of different departments. She was, I should say, the happiest person I met and gladly became close friends with. Found out we share a  common middle-last name (Cinco) and that sparked our immediate connection. I'd like to think we are true blood relatives. Ü Had our share of friendship ups and downs. As I look back, my heart warms at the thought that we were destined to meet and become close friends. Made a birthday video for her to remind her always that when she needs a friend, she can lean on me. (ayeee..kaigat!)

To the most autistic, loudest, perkiest, deepest, most emotional, ever-so-loyal, most free-spirited and most alone (translation: pinaka-nag-iisang. amf) goddess ever to bestow earth,

Happy Birthday Pauline Mae Cinco Aloyon!

Entry # 1

I got inspired by my couz/friend who started blogging again after doing a vacay off of blogging. I know a lot of people blog but I don't know why. Different reasons for different demons I should say. Blogging, for them, seems to have become a medium of self-expression. I don't have a problem with expressing myself but reading through theirs aroused the long slumbered dream about being a famous sex guru columnist, (amf) I mean, a travel mag columnist. Kidding aside, it does feel good when you're able to read your thoughts anytime. It feels so surreal. Anyway, that'll be another blog. Guess it's back to stirring the cages of supernatural thoughts again. In this site, pictures about places I have been to and wanted to be, so as people I've bumped into, day-to-day experiences, songs, thoughts and all that mumbo jumbo that got me, will be featured here.


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I reserve all the rights to all the posts and contents on this blog unless otherwise stated. This blog contains experiences, views, thoughts and memories of yours truly. This personal space is dedicated solely for anything that runs around my head. This is a personal expression of my side of the story, my point of view of an event and my emotional joy ride on a situation. If I ever said something that offended you, let me know so as to dissect and examine my post. But do keep in mind that we may have the same set of biomolecular composition, our brains may work differently. Respect and consideration for our differences is what I ask. But I do welcome criticisms and feedback. Ü To those who'll accidentally stumble on this page, feel free to drop a word or two. That should help me do a temp check about my thoughts.

 “Write to be understood, speak to be heard, read to grow...” ~Lawrence Clark Powell